I’ve always wanted to start a blog…a space to pour the contents of my mind into. My self-doubting mind told me I couldn’t do it, I would fail. Failure is one thing I have struggled with every second of every day of my life. I don’t handle it well or really at all. I finally took a leap of faith and here we are…overwhelmed, full-blown panic mode, anxiety ridden, and full-on fear of failure happening here. Ha-ha!! But….you never know if you don’ take that first step. Anyway, I am a mom. I Love Jesus with all that I am. I love my kids more than life. My husband is my best friend, and I can’t imagine life without him. I’ve officially spent more of my life with him at my side than I have without him. I am an avid coffee drinker; I like it dark and black. I love to read; psychological thrillers are my go-to at the moment, but I’m all in for a good love story. Crafting, building, and refinishing old furniture pieces are my jam. Making old things look new or refreshed makes me happy. I am a “do-it-yourselfer”…if I don’t know how, I research until I do. Cleaning and organizing are my therapy and sometimes a quick jog helps too. I love to sing…probably not the best anyone’s ever heard, but I love long drives alone while I sing at the top of my lungs. lol
I graduated in 2004, went to college, got married to my high school sweetheart, got pregnant, had a miscarriage, got pregnant again with our oldest son D and dropped out of college. Sadly, neither of us ever went back, but I honestly don’t know what I would go back for if ever given the opportunity. We had D in 2007 and three short months later we discovered we were pregnant with oldest daughter F (thank you NuvaRing). We had our beautiful baby girl in 2008. With a 2 month old and a 14 month old in tow, we joined the world of Pipelining. We traveled all over the place. Our first job was in Upstate NY. It was beautiful. Shortly after we began traveling, we moved into my husbands family home and have been here, in the middle of nowhere Arkansas, ever since. We welcomed our youngest baby girl A in 2012. She was my homebody who insisted on routine and being home, so my traveling was minimal with my little drama queen on board. Around 2017, my husband found a local job at home and waved farewell to the pipeline life. While I miss traveling around and seeing new places, it has been so nice being home as a family and having somewhat of a routine. We adopted our two wild boys, M and W, in 2020. It’s been a crazy ride since. We were blessed with easy, well-mannered, well-rounded kids. These boys came in like tiny little wrecking balls and 4 years later, we are still trying to adjust. We’ve had some really great times as well as some terrible, awful, ugly times. Learning to navigate mental health issues and behavioral problems resulted from trauma has been an adventure. God has literally had to drag me through these last couple years. I’ve wanted to quit more times than I can count. I know I’ve been given the task of raising these boys and growing them into men of God and I can’t quit now. Even in the darkest of valleys, I know He is helping me through. One day, this season of our lives will be an amazing testimony and I can’t wait to be able to share what God is going to do with it. In the meantime, stick around. Grow with us, laugh with us, cry with us, and maybe we can offer each other some encouraging words on those days when we let the darkness creep in.